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Polaroids: Alex Noiret by Mike Courtney

January 2015: Los Angeles, CA

Alex Noiret by Mike Courtney @visionlosangeles

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∗NOTE: Polaroids are actually digitals, or pictures that agents take of their models to show to the clients (back in the day agencies actually DID use polaroids, and so the name stuck). If the client thinks that your look fits the part, they’ll request you for a casting or direct book you for the job. Therefor, these pictures are very important!

∗NOTE:  I am a confident woman. I have curves, I love them, and although it isn’t always easy, I know  without a doubt that my skills and talents as a model go hand in hand with the healthy look that I have. I am an educated, strong, powerful, sensual, happy being when I model and I know that my womanly body only accentuates this. I am more of a personality as a whole. I love this. It’s what I’ve always wanted to be and represent. However, I have to be real with you guys. I have this fear of going into my agency, and it’s probably the one place on this earth that makes me practically hyperventilate prior to entering the doors to the building. It’s very bizarre, because I have the best agents. They genuinely love me, and Meg has known me since I was 14 years old. They’ve always stuck with me – literally through thick and thin. I am incredibly blessed. And still, the thought of going in mortifies me. Why? Is it because I have always stamped my mental thoughts of agencies as “judgmental nation”? Is it because I fear of being let down? That they don’t notice the effort that I put into bettering myself? Is it because I STILL own baggy clothes instead of tight, structured things?

Honestly, It’s probably all of the above. When I was at Ford they’d measure me and my hips every time I step foot into the offices. It always made me feel like cattle. As a 15 year old girl, I took everything so seriously and I do think that those ‘sessions’ had an effect on me. They always left me feeling like a failure, like my efforts were never enough. Because they weren’t! There came a point where my hips would not go down. At that moment in time, I was signed to one of the biggest agencies in NY and they were not kidding around. If I wanted to be walking shows and hitting it big, I had to drop down. But I never could. So anyway, I do think that those experiences instilled a little bit of agency-fear in me.

And yet every time I walk into Vision, they welcome me with hugs and smiles and speak to me with respect and kindness. It is always lovely and I always walk out thinking that I am the luckiest girl.

∗NOTE: I do regret having worn a material bra, because obviously I’m still not flat enough to pull off that “cool girl” Parisian heroin-chic look. Oops. I have boobs now! I won’t complain though. It’s OK.

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